Emmanuel

from all the busy life, the sufferings, the trials, the pressure...all in all, i found myself tired, weary, convinced that i am no longer able to continue....where is god? i need him...why won't he come to my aid? broken, worn, i prayed for help, asking god to come to me, not to abandon me..  then it was like a reply, i was checking mail, a fren sent me a page, 'duty' it was called. nothing in mind, i clicked the link....then what i saw moved me. God was answering me. I cried hard. God, i understand, i'll guard the post...nothing will move me, i will be there when u come back for me. I know that u'll be looking after me, and by all the end of it, it'll be wonderful, to be back in ur embrace, saying, "child, you have been through so much, now come back to heaven and stay with me forever more, no more sufferings, no more trials, no more pressure...."

It might seem stupid to some of the ppl, some might laugh and even criticise me for this, but that is what i think, i'm holding on tight to my post, that is my believe, is my hope, my reason of living, and a motivation to live on.

http://http://www.donghaeng.net/english/duty.htm

I read a story once, a man was dreaming, he was walking with God by a beach. He looked back, he saw many parts of it, there were two sets of footprints and some parts of it, only one set of footprints could be seen. He relised that it was the hardest times of his life that the one set of footporints exist. He turned to god..."My Lord, didn't u say that u will be with me always? through good times and bad times? Why, when i am in my most difficult times that only i walk alone? Where were u when i needed u most?" God looked at him, silent for a while and replied gently, "my child, that was when i carried u on my back..." The man, stunned, started to sob....

When u think that God has left u, he has not, either he has something to teach u or u are on his back.....Emmanuel...