Internal State in Disequilibrium =(

Sigh....So many things occupying and bothering my mind these days. Everything so jumbled up inside me. What to do??!!! I feel so fustrated, mostly with myself. Stupid, i can't even concentrate properly on my revisions and i'm having tests just in one week time. Lots of which i haven't even touched on yet. I should just ignore the stupid things that keep popping up in my mind, and concentrate solely on my studies!! and group work, and assignments, and my two-monthed clinical posting that is starting on 2nd April....uurrrgghhhhh.....If only i could just programme myself like a robot and ignore all of my stupid emotions and all the stupid distractions. Maybe i should try self-hypnosis. I know it's wishful thinking....Humans are complicated beings. Why cant they just stay naïve and ignorant and innocent?? Can't they stay simple and sweet? Why so complicated? It's only making life harder. Everything is just so beyond comprehension. Sigh...that's why i hate thinking so much and that many a times, i'd rather choose not to think about things, once i do start....the end results are usually like this.....headache....looks like i'm down in the pits again, sigh, it's like an old disease that keeps creeping back >.< help me please, God.....=(

Note for anyone who knows me and is reading this -> just ignore me >( because i think if i dont let all of this out somewhere....i'll honestly go bonkers.

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12th March 2007